The real question here is "does Rick has a brother, is he single and when are you going to introduce us"
Jokes aside, thanks as usual for such an open and yet respectfully, elegantly boundaried piece.
In the last 10 years I have struggled more with "why is this happening" than with "why am I still around", but I feel the answer to both questions lies within the deep folds of those Universal Truths we spend many lives experiencing but never fully grasping. At times (when it's really quiet within, and really painful/beautiful outside - and even more when beauty is so intense it almost hurts) I feel like I can vaguely catch a glimpse of their magnitude, of their blink-and-you'll-miss-it evanescence. And then Earth calles me back to herself, and here I am, daily and mundane as perhaps I'm meant to be. Being there for all those who are also still around.
You made me laugh with the brother comment 😂 and then... "when beauty is so intense it almost hurts." It really can sometimes. It seems like you are in the same place, in a way... just knee deep in the mystery and okay with it. xoxo
It’s not easy to be so open but when you have the support of someone as wonderful as Rick you are eternally blessed…peace to your soul,mind and body going forward…
I love your writing. There are always things that resonate so completely with my own thoughts and quirks. As an aside, Greg (hubby) and I have started watching The Last Kingdom and a look forward to our nightly ritual of watching a few episodes. Netflix is only showing five seasons though, there are seven?
Thanks, Kateri, for another adventure in exploring what being human means. Most of the time I really haven’t a clue, Most of the time I feel like a muddler (definition: one who muddles). Most of the time I am swimming in questions that have no answers. But I am blessed with friends (you, for one) I can “muddle” with. and that is all that really matters.
Kateri, I’ve read your latest posting at least three times, and out loud to Fred, too. There were tears, recognition, and a lovely reminder to be grateful for who I am. Xo
Your mess is my mess 💕 Been trying to wrestle away my fears as I think they’re so stupid and I just shouldn’t have them! But then my fear only comes back harder as I feel like it wants to teach and show me something. What it is I’m not sure though 😂 But yes! Let’s be kind and loving to ourselves and our messiness and do the things we want to do with love for our whole selves. Including our messy fear! Thank you for your vulnerability! 🙏🏻🥰 I see myself in you and the humanness in it all.
If I am honest about why I am still here, it comes down to, I woke up this morning. And that reminds me I have something to learn. I have been fortunate with my body, my mind, and the love that surrounds me. I have work to do. So I try to listen, to others and my own inner voice, on my rocky path.
To read your essay, brings me to reflect on being human, on the loveliness of relationship. Your words, the sharing of your very personal experiences, are truly a gift. I mean that on a personal level. It slaps me upside the face to remember my compassion, my strengths and the genuine expression of love, support and kindness. To know we are each our own bundle of energy, of matter, of mess. My mess is a continuous need to be reminded of that fact. And to use my strength, my good fortune of health, to be there for my family and friends. They do not share my vessel, I am grateful for their otherness. I am grateful, to remember this otherness is each there own being, there own unique and beautiful mess.That is why I am still here, at least for now.
oh how i look forward to ur 'my life is an open book' writing of urself; i learn something new and fascinating aabout u - and to a lesser degree, rick - in ur stretched out missives explaining ur take on the world. i like ur take on the world. could write more here but am ready now to venture to our holiday inn (express) complimentary breakfast area - nothing like what i imagine the roycroft's offering will look like - but it'll do. then pack the subie and head ot our next MI. adventurer w/ another batch of sue's kin. i look forward to today with bro-in-law in lovely little paw paw; he's the prototypical perfect bro-in-law. talk again soon. be well, kateri.
My life is very very far from an open book, but when I have something to say I say it with honesty. Thank you again for reading and taking the tome for such thoughtful comments. I hope you have to best time! Pure Michigan! (My family live there.)
to build bridges.
sometimes, to be a bridge.
hug Rick for me.
Love, love, love your take on this.
It will keep me company from now on, for sure.
You are the hub of the wheel xoxo thank you, dear one.
The real question here is "does Rick has a brother, is he single and when are you going to introduce us"
Jokes aside, thanks as usual for such an open and yet respectfully, elegantly boundaried piece.
In the last 10 years I have struggled more with "why is this happening" than with "why am I still around", but I feel the answer to both questions lies within the deep folds of those Universal Truths we spend many lives experiencing but never fully grasping. At times (when it's really quiet within, and really painful/beautiful outside - and even more when beauty is so intense it almost hurts) I feel like I can vaguely catch a glimpse of their magnitude, of their blink-and-you'll-miss-it evanescence. And then Earth calles me back to herself, and here I am, daily and mundane as perhaps I'm meant to be. Being there for all those who are also still around.
Being held but those who aren't.
You made me laugh with the brother comment 😂 and then... "when beauty is so intense it almost hurts." It really can sometimes. It seems like you are in the same place, in a way... just knee deep in the mystery and okay with it. xoxo
What a wonderful writer and source of inspiration you are Kateri. I’m very glad you are “you”
Thank you. What a kind thing to say. I am thankful you are here with me! 🩵
It’s not easy to be so open but when you have the support of someone as wonderful as Rick you are eternally blessed…peace to your soul,mind and body going forward…
Thank you, Moe. And thanks for reading :) Not sure if I am open, but I write with honesty. Maybe that is the same thing :)
I love your writing. There are always things that resonate so completely with my own thoughts and quirks. As an aside, Greg (hubby) and I have started watching The Last Kingdom and a look forward to our nightly ritual of watching a few episodes. Netflix is only showing five seasons though, there are seven?
Thank you so much, Judy. And I really don't know! We watched the entire thing on Netflix. It was made by Netflix. How strange!
Thanks, Kateri, for another adventure in exploring what being human means. Most of the time I really haven’t a clue, Most of the time I feel like a muddler (definition: one who muddles). Most of the time I am swimming in questions that have no answers. But I am blessed with friends (you, for one) I can “muddle” with. and that is all that really matters.
I really love the word muddle. Thank you, so much, fellow muddler. xoxo
Kateri, I’ve read your latest posting at least three times, and out loud to Fred, too. There were tears, recognition, and a lovely reminder to be grateful for who I am. Xo
Will you and Fred hug one another for me? Love you both. Thank you, dear one. 🩵
Your mess is my mess 💕 Been trying to wrestle away my fears as I think they’re so stupid and I just shouldn’t have them! But then my fear only comes back harder as I feel like it wants to teach and show me something. What it is I’m not sure though 😂 But yes! Let’s be kind and loving to ourselves and our messiness and do the things we want to do with love for our whole selves. Including our messy fear! Thank you for your vulnerability! 🙏🏻🥰 I see myself in you and the humanness in it all.
Thank you so much, Merel. Embracing the humanness. xoxo
If I am honest about why I am still here, it comes down to, I woke up this morning. And that reminds me I have something to learn. I have been fortunate with my body, my mind, and the love that surrounds me. I have work to do. So I try to listen, to others and my own inner voice, on my rocky path.
To read your essay, brings me to reflect on being human, on the loveliness of relationship. Your words, the sharing of your very personal experiences, are truly a gift. I mean that on a personal level. It slaps me upside the face to remember my compassion, my strengths and the genuine expression of love, support and kindness. To know we are each our own bundle of energy, of matter, of mess. My mess is a continuous need to be reminded of that fact. And to use my strength, my good fortune of health, to be there for my family and friends. They do not share my vessel, I am grateful for their otherness. I am grateful, to remember this otherness is each there own being, there own unique and beautiful mess.That is why I am still here, at least for now.
Thank you so much, Judy. What a beautiful flow of thoughts. I appreciate all you have written here. "I woke up this morning." What a blessing. xoxo
Beautiful, Kateri. You are a lucky woman. Hope to see you soon.
I am indeed. We both are. Let's make it happen, soon! 🩵
oh how i look forward to ur 'my life is an open book' writing of urself; i learn something new and fascinating aabout u - and to a lesser degree, rick - in ur stretched out missives explaining ur take on the world. i like ur take on the world. could write more here but am ready now to venture to our holiday inn (express) complimentary breakfast area - nothing like what i imagine the roycroft's offering will look like - but it'll do. then pack the subie and head ot our next MI. adventurer w/ another batch of sue's kin. i look forward to today with bro-in-law in lovely little paw paw; he's the prototypical perfect bro-in-law. talk again soon. be well, kateri.
My life is very very far from an open book, but when I have something to say I say it with honesty. Thank you again for reading and taking the tome for such thoughtful comments. I hope you have to best time! Pure Michigan! (My family live there.)
I understand completely. Love you
Love you too! 🩷